It's been a while...

So much has happened in the past few weeks and I have been attempting to deal with all of the drama, so I haven't written in a while. I feel like I have been neglectful, but at the same time, maybe I'm subconsciously preparing myself for basic...

Anyway here is the update thus far:

CF..Still waiting on the phone call for my medical review, so far everything else has comeback golden!! All my references have been called, my credit check is fine, and my back-check has come back clear. :)

My friends have shipped off to Af'stan and have received their first set of care packages from me!! They are both apparently doing well, although one (G) fell out of a helicopter, lol; he's fine but apparently he has learned that he can perform some sweet ass ninja moves when he falls... Way to go G, hopefully you will get some much needed rest on your upcoming HLTA. :)

Now for the shitty week:

I got laid off from my job on November 23, with a small little severance payment, so I have been out searching for jobs in a jobless market... its not a good thing; but I am trying to stay somewhat positive on that front. Hopefully, I will find something soon; I feel like I am being very very lazy.

The riders lost the Grey Cup, by one measly point and all due to one extra player accidentally being on the field. It was a great game, even if the pre-game events sucked big time. What were the pre-game events you ask? Well; nothing like the partying and tail-gating that should have happened, Instead I spent all of 40 minutes with my biological father... whom we will henceforth refer to as the sperm donor.

The sperm donor showed up in the city to have a chat with me, "to set the record straight" as he says. You see I sent him an email not to long ago, saying that he should really try being a father to myself and my brother instead of asking us how to be a better father to our step-sister. He decided to inform me that he was and always has been a good father to us... If you know my life story well enough, you know that, that is not really the truth...although if you know my life story well enough you know that anything that comes out of the sperm donor's mouth generally tends to err on the side of lying. Anyway, so he showed up and I was guilted into dropping my grey cup plans to take him out or spend time with him during the game... I decided on a pub, somewhere that communication would be limited....

Unfortunately for me Sperm donor has no qualms about starting an argument in the middle of a crowded place. The yelling started about 20 minutes after we got there... until I finally had enough finger pointing in my direction demanding that I listen the Bullshit that was spewing out of his mouth, and got up to leave. I paid our waitress, apologizing for the arguing. Called my brother and asked him to come get his father and take him home. I told the sperm donor that I was done. Sperm donor then followed me out continued to sling more insults and I walked away. All the while telling myself that doing what I wanted to do (Punching the Fucker out) would only get my application revoked from the CF. In most recent messages that I received from him, (until I learned how to block people) he has decided that he is not sorry for the insults he was flinging, just for the fact that he doesn't think I am ready to hear the "truth", and then he threw some more insults in.

So now I have blocked Sperm donors entire family from me, cutting off all communication is the only way to do things as he will get other people to contact me for him, and he needs to know that I mean business, so much business that I am actually looking into changing my last name; I want nothing further to do with him.

Anyway shortly after that A made contact accusing me of being rude and hurting his feelings over my MSN name, I told him that I have had a shitty week and the fact that he thinks I am being rude is the least of my problems, and if he really wanted to know what rude was, he needed to think back to the day he broke up with me and take a look at his actions. He knows how I feel as do all of the 8 people that create my MSN list; and that unless he feels any differently about me than what he said so many months ago, it shouldn't make him feel much of anything.

I know it sounds kind of rude, but I still love A, whether I like it or not...but at that point I couldn't take anymore drama or arguing; so I signed off MSN and haven't heard a peep from him since.

Like I said the drama has been on overload lately and I am looking forward to getting good news in the near future *crosses fingers*

So in the past week I have managed to find myself, jobless, fatherless, grey cup-less and yup...still man-less. :(

Praying for something good soon;
- Stiletto