BMQ and Bagpipes...

I have never not wanted to hear the bagpipes...

But I know on my grad parade day, I will be silently praying that they have changed the pipers.

Maybe by then I will be okay with it, maybe by then I will be able to handle seeing A again.... but right now, I'm not okay with it.

A and I shared an MSN conversation yesterday, there wasn't a lot said; however we talked a bit about basic and how he liked his new position; he wants to meet up for coffee or something of the sort while I am at basic and the proceeded to tell me that he will actually be piping at several of the grad parades in St. Jean.

I don't know if I will ever be ready to face him again, but I know that it will not be a good situation, with family members that are planning on showing up to my grad, if he is there it could make for one very unpleasant day.

Ughh...

Sorry I just needed to get this out, I know its not something I need to concern myself with right now, but at this very moment, its all I can think about.

What kills me is that he is happy and I feel like I am stuck in Limbo...

Stressed and tires of being alone and in Limbo;
- Stiletto