You could have let me love you...

that's what you could have done.

you say you are sitting there regretting your decision to end us, A. When all you had to do was let me love you, all you had to do was let me in. Hell, that's all you still have to do, let me in, let me love you, let me show you that when things get hard, I wont waver... I wont run like they did.

A, all I ever wanted was to be the one you ran to when things got hard, the one you told everything to, the one you turned to when you were sad, the one you shared your happy moments with. You were adamant that you didn't want that, that I wasn't the one for you. And now you say you are regretting that, but you don't want to try us again. You say you miss me indescribably, and you miss everything about me, physically and emotionally, and yet you are to stubborn to see what you had, is what you can still have.

You say I deserve better and that I shouldn't want you anymore, after all, you did break my heart. But here is the problem, you still have my heart, and even though I know I shouldn't want you and I know that I deserve better, that silly little heart you hold in your hands doesn't care what I deserve, it only knows what it wants... and it wants you.

A, I told you once, that after you I doubt that anyone could take your place. I wasn't kidding, it wasn't just love soaked drivel I was telling you; it was the truth, when I said I'd wait for you forever, and that if you would let me love you forever I would. It was the truth; and although you may not want me to love you forever, my little heart can't help but do it anyway.

Even now, knowing that you think us is an impossible task to restart, my heart beats wildly at having the incling that you have thought about it. I know you better than to tell you this all right now, I know that you are emotionally shut down, because it's what you do when you are lost and confused. You have never been able to run to someone when you feel this way so you shut down; but don't you see, I realize that and I don't love you in spite of it, I love you because of it.

That's right, you tore my heart out and held it in your hands and then dropped it...and yet, like a child who doesn't know any better I still love you. I would still give you my heart again, I would still give you all the trust I have left....

I've been telling myself I am over you, hell, I've been telling everyone I am over you; but let me be honest with you now. I'm not, nor do I think I ever will be. You were my everything, you were my lover, my best friend, the man that stole my heart at a single glance.

You were my first love, that's right, the little girl that I was loved the little boy that you were, so many years ago. And now, the woman that I am loves the man that you are, and the man that you are afraid to be...still. Months of heartache on both our parts, proves that you made a mistake... we all make mistakes; the trick is to grow with them.

Whether or not 'we' ever happen again, know that you will always hold my heart in your hands... you were the only man that ever got my whole heart... its only fitting that you keep a bit of it.

I got this dream I’ve been dreamin’
The perfect picture of love
Sparks and fireworks flyin’,
almost too hot to touch
Then everything I wanted and then some
Suddenly walked in the room
I said I needed different, but maybe I spoke to soon

It’s every kind of crazy I could ever imagine
A battle raging between my head & my heart
But if you gotta have it all, that madness and passion
Then you’ll learn Ooo, you’ll learn
If you want fire It better be worth the burn

We’re either laughing or crying
Flying high or running away
But in between the thunder & lightning
There’s always another day

It’s every kind of crazy I could ever imagine
A battle raging ‘tween my head & my heart
But if you gotta have it all, that madness and passion
Then you’ll learn Ooo, you’ll learn
If you want fire It better be worth the burn

Sometimes it feels all or nothing
Sometimes it’s nothing at all
But in between those moments it’s magic
That softens the fall

It’s every kind of crazy I could ever imagine
A battle raging between my head & my heart
But if you gotta have it all that madness and passion
Then you’ll learn
Ooo, you’ll learn
If you want fire
It better be worth the burn


A; to me, you are worth the burn
- Stiletto