Family?

Normally I love my family.

Sure I have my days where I would rather slam my head into a brick wall than spend time with them, but who doesn't?

However, lately I am feeling nothing but disappointment when talking to certain members of my family. Now it could just be me getting antsy about the new endeavour that I am taking on, or really I could just be being overly picky and a little bitchy. But at the moment I am really craving some family time. I know that the next 2 years at least; will not be filled with it.

However; when I ask certain member of my family for some quality time I get nothing, no response, no even possible date made to spend some time with each other. I usually just get a "not now, need to go". But all of a sudden when I have other things planned I need to drop what I am doing to do you a favor, because if I don't I become the bitch, the bad guy, or the irresponsible, inconsiderate family member.

Then there are the family members that fake the relationship, not that that's a new thing, they always have and yet it still never ceases to actually piss me off. You know who you are. If your going to ask a question of me to get an answer that you want; don't do it under the guise of something remotely nice; just grow a pair and tell me the real reason, its less disappointing that way.

I know my decision has upset a lot of people, whether they admit to it or not, I know that there are certain people who still believe that I am not going through with this; they seem to forget that I always finish what I start, that once I put my mind to something I rarely back out of it; and if i do it is with damn good reason. So today, I give up.

If you are only going to treat me as a person that can do things for you, go fuck yourself. I am so done with all the people in my life that just use me to help them when they need it, without any thought as to how they might be effecting me. Family or not, it's not worth my fucking time.

"Lack of planning on your part, does not constitute an emergency on mine"

Pissed off, disappointed and a little ashamed at your actions;
- Stiletto